Changes

Change is in the air! It is apparently time to have new and different energy in my field.
I finally figured out what I was supposed to see in all this time down.
For one, be true to yourself in everything you do, it is ok to assess what others want and need from you but you also have to look at what's in it for you..... not in the way you might think.... But in the way of does this feed my soul? or does it eat away at my soul? do good things happen to me me when I do things that feed my soul? for ME yes! It is not always easy to do this but no one ever said it would be.  Sometimes our lessons lie in those times that are hard, we are reminded how small AND how great we are. We are often being challenged to put need above want..... and to define the difference between the two. Too often we get very confused on this issue..... we want something so badly we treat it as a need then we get into trouble......
Do I NEED more money.... More anything?   NO!   If I NEED anything it is LESS!!!!
No matter how much or how little we have had, we have always been happy, but the more money we have, the more stuff we have, and the more stress we have!
I have traveled this country on my thumb with only the clothes on my back and it was grand! Now I have so much I can barely go on a 2 day vacation!
My house right now is allot like my brain.... has allot of really cool stuff surrounded by allot of trivial BS! I hope in the process of learning to forget the stuff that doesn't nourish my soul, I also learn to let go of the clutter....I keep everything..... thoughts, events, mementos of events.... the most precious moment of my life with my husband did not make the wedding tape, we said " some things are best kept as memories".... Need to work on that concept as a life plan.... don't need old concert tickets, arm bands from other festivals.... Every time I get rid of stuff I just get more stuff.... where does it stop?


I have also found that I am good at what I do and do not need to stand in the shadow, or bask in the glow of another to be seen or appreciated. I do not need outside validation..... well ok still not weaned off that completely but I have learned to know my own value.
So it is time for me to get out of what ever bubble I have created for myself and stand in my own power and be who and what I was meant to be. It has taken many years to teach me that I CAN"T do things, lets hope it is a somewhat faster process to show me that I can