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Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Fa la la la la

Well here it is, another  year ending and the people come out like ants in a swarm to spend themselves into even further debt for stuff that for the most part is unneeded, unwanted, and most likely purchased by obligation. A sad view of Christmas? Yes but it is what we have become! I see all around me people buying gifts for people they barely know because it is "expected" of them. Buying gifts for the children of their child's new, live-in's children, whom they've never met and may never see again, Your hair dresser, what do you give your door man, your children's teachers?.... and what do you do when they no longer have just one? Nieces and nephews? just those who live near you and you will see? just those who actually know or like you? All of them? None of them? And the there are the friends.... and their children and perhaps grandchildren.
Do you wonder what would happen if you stopped forced gifting? What I mean by forced is, the gifts you give because the date tells you to birthdays, Christmas, Anniversary's, Valentine's day? what if we went back to giving a gift of the heart, not so much the wallet, when we felt moved to give something?
Could we be loosing the meaning and good feeling of giving because we "have to"?
I resent having to buy stuff for kids who don't even speak to me unless they are told to or because they want a present for some "date" on a calender. 
Don't get me wrong! Oh no! I love to give presents! but those that I do give to, know they are likely to get stuff all year rather than on just those days, I feel joy in giving. When I give something and the recipient  is truly thankful or appreciative, when they light up with excitement even if it is cheap, because it is "them" or they see it made me think of them, as well as those things I give because someone wants something they can't afford or justify the expenditure even if its 20.00.
I like the spirit of giving, I like the Christmas spirit, it just means something different to me.

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Changes

Change is in the air! It is apparently time to have new and different energy in my field.
I finally figured out what I was supposed to see in all this time down.
For one, be true to yourself in everything you do, it is ok to assess what others want and need from you but you also have to look at what's in it for you..... not in the way you might think.... But in the way of does this feed my soul? or does it eat away at my soul? do good things happen to me me when I do things that feed my soul? for ME yes! It is not always easy to do this but no one ever said it would be.  Sometimes our lessons lie in those times that are hard, we are reminded how small AND how great we are. We are often being challenged to put need above want..... and to define the difference between the two. Too often we get very confused on this issue..... we want something so badly we treat it as a need then we get into trouble......
Do I NEED more money.... More anything?   NO!   If I NEED anything it is LESS!!!!
No matter how much or how little we have had, we have always been happy, but the more money we have, the more stuff we have, and the more stress we have!
I have traveled this country on my thumb with only the clothes on my back and it was grand! Now I have so much I can barely go on a 2 day vacation!
My house right now is allot like my brain.... has allot of really cool stuff surrounded by allot of trivial BS! I hope in the process of learning to forget the stuff that doesn't nourish my soul, I also learn to let go of the clutter....I keep everything..... thoughts, events, mementos of events.... the most precious moment of my life with my husband did not make the wedding tape, we said " some things are best kept as memories".... Need to work on that concept as a life plan.... don't need old concert tickets, arm bands from other festivals.... Every time I get rid of stuff I just get more stuff.... where does it stop?


I have also found that I am good at what I do and do not need to stand in the shadow, or bask in the glow of another to be seen or appreciated. I do not need outside validation..... well ok still not weaned off that completely but I have learned to know my own value.
So it is time for me to get out of what ever bubble I have created for myself and stand in my own power and be who and what I was meant to be. It has taken many years to teach me that I CAN"T do things, lets hope it is a somewhat faster process to show me that I can

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Seeking

What is it that I seek? Everything, happiness, truth, God, Forgiveness, a way to make my life make sense. I have found that humans have placed allot of  worth in things that don't really matter.
When you look at the BIG picture how much do we really need? Most of what we NEED we pay little or no attention to. I know I spend too much time dealing with outside influences when I should be looking inward, feeding my spirit. This does not mean becoming introverted, or going to church, reading the bible or anything like that. Not that those are necessarily bad things. I simply mean feeding my spirit with all that is given to me by my creator. The creator does not care about nice houses, the big game, the latest episode of someone Else's real or imitation life.
What am I doing? What can I do to be calmer, freer - happier?
 Learning to quiet the mind and just be, to concern myself with just this one concept. To hear that which I am supposed to hear and see what I am supposed to see.
 Do I need to fit in someones box to do this? NO! In fact most seekers don't.......
How do I clear the thought patterns that keep me bound to things that are not healthy for my mind, body or spirit?
At the behest of a fellow seeker, I wish to share the journey with any like minded fellow travelers who wish to tag along.
Have you ever wondered what it would be like to not have to fight for the understanding of others all the time?
had to write something so we would know where we are